But I can't even see the damn wagon anymore! Yep, that's how long I have been turning my back on this aspect of my life. I can blame the broken ankle, or the holidays, or the expense of Jenny, or the ever classic excuse for women...hormones. Yet, we all know that's a crock of sh!&, but I am good at selling it to myself. Side note, next career..sales...this has shown me I can sell anything to anyone.
Ok, but honestly I do want to get back to the program; I just wish the days weren't so long. Living alone and working in a corporate setting sets anyone up for failure. There are only so many times I can pass the food spread and resist, I have even gone other directions to bypass the table only to run into another departments spread! Try to get out of this building without running into food...I dare you. Blinders, like the kind horses use, work...but then I just get strange looks from everyone in the department so I gave those back to Ed.
My only chance is to overcome this is to be prepared.
Have food at my desk that is good for me, vent my frustrations on here, and keep the picture of success in the front of my mind at all times. One of these days it will all click and I will win. So why not make that day today?
Friday, December 10, 2010
Friday, November 19, 2010
I'mmmm Back :)
Rumor has it the first sentence of every blog I write is going to have something to do with an apology. Tricked ya, it's the 3rd sentence in this one! Sorry for not writing in a while, life is getting in the way of me expressing my feelings about...life. I figured I would take a moment to highlight the events and missteps (literally) in my life right now.
Instead of charming you with my witty comments, and complex sentence that leaves you wanting to read more, I am going to revert back to middle school D- essay paper style. Bullet points and incomplete sentences!!!
Instead of charming you with my witty comments, and complex sentence that leaves you wanting to read more, I am going to revert back to middle school D- essay paper style. Bullet points and incomplete sentences!!!
- Still dealing with the narcolepsy, going back to the neurologist in December.
- Been on numerous out of town visits for work, haven't been a full week on Jenny in a while.
- Wedding this past weekend, broke my toe and fractured my ankle.
- Thanksgiving is coming up and I get to see someone I haven't seen in years, bit beside myself with excitement about this one.
- Been doing really well in the office, gotten some kudos on big projects.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Sorry for not posting! I have been sleeping...literally.
First, I must apologize for my absence. Good news is I am back, and I figured the most appropriate blog topic should be about my recent MIA.
Ever seen the movie "Rat Race"? If you haven't, in my opinion, you're not missing much; then again I prefer romantic comedies and just don't get sophomoric humor. Needless to say, there is a character in the movie who has narcolepsy and in classic slapstick comedy style falls asleep at the most inopportune times. I am hear to clear up that stereotype of narcoleptics because...*if you're putting two and two together from the title and the previous statement this shouldn't be surprise*...I have narcolepsy. Gasp! Shock! I'm pretty sure you're thinking, "Does she fall asleep at work? What about driving?"
The answer to those questions is no. Honestly, the only reason it's no is because I fight the sleepiness all day with "work arounds" I have unknowingly implemented in my life since I was a child. You see, I was only diagnosed with narcolepsy a few weeks ago and I won't lie the moment I got home and was alone, I cried. That good old fashion sobbing style, not because I was upset with the news but actually relieved.
I have been miserable, tired, sad for as long as I can remember. I often told friends I couldn't do things on the weekend because I was busy. Busy was code for I am gonna sleep all weekend because I had forced myself to stay awake all week to work so by the end of the week all I wanted to do was sleep. I just thought my constant sleepiness was because I was depressed etc. and to find out from my neurologist once the test results came in that it was a biological problem I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.
Sadly, there is no cure just medication to help me get through the day. I am in the process of figuring out, along with my neurologist, the best medication. The first didn't have much of an effect so we are now trying option II. Worrisome moment...there are only a finite amount of medications and options :-/.
Thousands of things are running through my head that I want to share about my diagnosis from telling you what my "work arounds" are to how this effects my weight, but I gotta keep you all on the hook somehow to continue checking my blog. So until next time....
Ever seen the movie "Rat Race"? If you haven't, in my opinion, you're not missing much; then again I prefer romantic comedies and just don't get sophomoric humor. Needless to say, there is a character in the movie who has narcolepsy and in classic slapstick comedy style falls asleep at the most inopportune times. I am hear to clear up that stereotype of narcoleptics because...*if you're putting two and two together from the title and the previous statement this shouldn't be surprise*...I have narcolepsy. Gasp! Shock! I'm pretty sure you're thinking, "Does she fall asleep at work? What about driving?"
The answer to those questions is no. Honestly, the only reason it's no is because I fight the sleepiness all day with "work arounds" I have unknowingly implemented in my life since I was a child. You see, I was only diagnosed with narcolepsy a few weeks ago and I won't lie the moment I got home and was alone, I cried. That good old fashion sobbing style, not because I was upset with the news but actually relieved.
I have been miserable, tired, sad for as long as I can remember. I often told friends I couldn't do things on the weekend because I was busy. Busy was code for I am gonna sleep all weekend because I had forced myself to stay awake all week to work so by the end of the week all I wanted to do was sleep. I just thought my constant sleepiness was because I was depressed etc. and to find out from my neurologist once the test results came in that it was a biological problem I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.
Sadly, there is no cure just medication to help me get through the day. I am in the process of figuring out, along with my neurologist, the best medication. The first didn't have much of an effect so we are now trying option II. Worrisome moment...there are only a finite amount of medications and options :-/.
Thousands of things are running through my head that I want to share about my diagnosis from telling you what my "work arounds" are to how this effects my weight, but I gotta keep you all on the hook somehow to continue checking my blog. So until next time....
Friday, September 17, 2010
Fajitas to the left, cupcakes to the right.
It’s amazing to me that everyone in my company isn’t 500lbs and growing. While working today I not only had to go to war with 100+ emails, but I also had to battle my mind in the war of “food spreads”. In the cubicle next to me sits a box of fancy cupcakes, while to my right and down the row sits a fajita spread. I can promise you I am not crazy, ask my therapist she can vouch ;), but I SWEAR the food was talking to me. Don’t get me wrong, I really enjoy Jenny Craig’s food, but when strawberry chocolate cupcakes are calling your name it’s impossible to resist….almost.
I feel like my mind is a broken record right now. I keep telling myself, "nothing tastes as good as thin feels". Problem is, I have never seen myself as thin so how the heck do I know what it feels like! Well, one pound at a time I will find out. I have been on Jenny Craig for over 3 weeks and I have lost 8lbs, (without hitting the gym everyday...shh don't tell my former trainer, she will kill me)....but lets just say I HATE WORKING OUT WITH A PASSION . I will wait for another blog to share my reason as to why.
Needless to say, had I been on another diet program I probably would have had a cupcake and used X amount of points for it, then starved myself at dinner just to make up. However, with Jenny I have had well balanced meals and will get to have cheesecake for dessert! Take that cupcakes!
Friday, September 10, 2010
My reason for blogging...
Hi everyone, my name is Erin and this is my attempt at blogging. I have started this blog because I am fat overweight and wanted to share my journey in weight loss using Jenny Craig. Now, let me begin by apologizing; unlike my sister, I am NOT a writer, so please bear with me as I try to express my feelings through words.
We are surrounded by diet ads, commercials for the latest and greatest diet pills, and diet centers in what seems like every shopping center. Let's not forget the gym flyer's we get every week in the mail taunting us about exercise and health. I'm not blind or paralyzed, I see myself in the mirror every single day and I can feel how my pants fits just a bit tighter than the week before (I'm blaming my dryer for that one though, I swear it shrinks them). Basically, I've always known I needed to lose weight, but deciding which program to use and getting the inspiration to start one was impossible....until a recent "Live with Regis and Kelly" episode.
You see I was lucky enough to be in the audience the day Sara Rue, aka the latest Jenny Craig spokesperson, was a guest. Let's pause for a moment to give props to her and her 50lb weight loss, she is just too cute for words! Now, back to what I was saying...I also happened to be the "Surfer Girl" for the Travel Trivia segment of that show. Seeing yourself on TV...well let's just say....there are no words. It was huge wake up call.
Ok, ok...so I've had many "wake up" calls that I tend to keep hitting the snooze button on in life when it comes to my weight, and it wasn't until Sara Rue spoke that I was not only inspired but also knew which program I wanted to use. Tears filled my eyes because I knew that program was Jenny Craig. I can still hear Sara say, "My fiance told me, 'I told love you more, but I love that you love you more". I cried that day, and still cry thinking about it.
I want to love myself more, I want to be able to wear "skinny jeans", I want to be able to run a marathon...or maybe just a half, but I want to be able to do it! So, ladies and gentlemen this is my journey with Jenny, care to join me?
We are surrounded by diet ads, commercials for the latest and greatest diet pills, and diet centers in what seems like every shopping center. Let's not forget the gym flyer's we get every week in the mail taunting us about exercise and health. I'm not blind or paralyzed, I see myself in the mirror every single day and I can feel how my pants fits just a bit tighter than the week before (I'm blaming my dryer for that one though, I swear it shrinks them). Basically, I've always known I needed to lose weight, but deciding which program to use and getting the inspiration to start one was impossible....until a recent "Live with Regis and Kelly" episode.
You see I was lucky enough to be in the audience the day Sara Rue, aka the latest Jenny Craig spokesperson, was a guest. Let's pause for a moment to give props to her and her 50lb weight loss, she is just too cute for words! Now, back to what I was saying...I also happened to be the "Surfer Girl" for the Travel Trivia segment of that show. Seeing yourself on TV...well let's just say....there are no words. It was huge wake up call.
Ok, ok...so I've had many "wake up" calls that I tend to keep hitting the snooze button on in life when it comes to my weight, and it wasn't until Sara Rue spoke that I was not only inspired but also knew which program I wanted to use. Tears filled my eyes because I knew that program was Jenny Craig. I can still hear Sara say, "My fiance told me, 'I told love you more, but I love that you love you more". I cried that day, and still cry thinking about it.
I want to love myself more, I want to be able to wear "skinny jeans", I want to be able to run a marathon...or maybe just a half, but I want to be able to do it! So, ladies and gentlemen this is my journey with Jenny, care to join me?
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